I’ve fallen off the mat.
I’m the past I always wondered what yogis meant when they said they had “fallen off the mat”. My mind would immediately try and draw a picture of someone tumbling to the ground as they lifted into a headstand. It seemed silly and almost impossible.
However, in the past few months I’ve found myself falling. And I say falling because I have yet to hit the ground. I am still suspended in mid air unsure of what is happening and what to do next. As a yoga teacher, people expect you to practice everyday. You are not allowed to say you are struggling to get onto your mat because you are afraid. Afraid of the past that might haught you in savasana or the future that might disturbt your peace in child’s pose.
After find courage to share my fear with one of my best friends, I was reminded of the following:
1. Do it because you love it
My yoga journey began because I was fascinated by the cool yoga moves. My yoga journey continued because I fell inlove with how it made me feel. The asanas remind me of my strength both physically and emotionally. As I stumble out of various poses, I am reminded of my resilience and power. I am more than the images I fail to post on Instagram.
2. It’s not a sprint, it’s a marathon
Yoga is a lifelong jourey. I have to remember that I am not in competition with anyone. I do not have to rush myself to nail any pose because that will push me further away from my mat. I have to realise that doing a 10 minute flow everyday is better than doing one hour once a month.
3. Get a yoga buddy
Growth does not happen in a vacuum. It is okay to ask friends to support you throughout this process. I have decided to reach out to yogis I know to ask for support. Sometimes one needs a yoga hype man:)
4. Out of sight, out of mind
In the past I always kept my yoga mat at the foot of my bed. However, as I began teaching more classes I pack all my mats in the studio. The mat acted as a reminder of the practice that I promised myself to do daily. I think it’s time for the mat to return to it’s rightful place.
I suppose every yogi falls off the mat from time to time. Although challenging, the aim is to get back on the mat and continue where you left off. And that is exactly what I plan to do.