YOU HAVE NO TALENT. YOUR PRESENCE IS NOT NEEDED. SOMEONE IS BETTER THAN YOU. YOU ARE WASTING YOUR TIME. YOUR DREAMS ARE NEVER GOING TO BE A REALITY. STOP BEING DELUSIONAL. I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN VALIDATE YOU, AS YOU HAVE NO REAL PURPOSE!!!!
This is what I have been hearing from the world over the last few days, weeks, months. I have been rejected by more poetry publishers than I care to count, I seem to suck at Spoken Word, and my blog audience has shriveled rapidly. The world is poking holes in my dreams, and it is waiting for me to sink… But I refuse!
It is easy to lay down and wave your white flag until the world stops beating you down. It seems more realistic for me to tuck away my dreams, and live a mundane life because random strangers have failed to acknowledge my work, or have stated that my word is bulldust (for lack of a better phrase). Everyday I find myself nagging about how hard it is to continue, to push against a force that seems stronger than me, to prove that I am worth the space I occupy on earth. I look in the mirror and I can see defeat looming behind me like an underdeveloped shadow, waiting to cast my life into darkness.
But I wont allow failure to win. Neither will I allow the words of others validate a talent they never gave me. History has repeatedly shown me that the most successful people don’t receive society’s approval. There was a time Einstein could not find a job, the artistry in Vincent van Gogh‘s work was only seen after his death, and many thought Leonardo da Vinci crazy.
No I’m not a bestselling author right now, but I will be in the future. The continuous rejection is a reminder that I need to work harder, and push further than I thought necessary. The “no” reminds me that I need to escape my comfort zone, and explore new boundaries. The rejection I face everyday tells me that there is more to me that I have yet to discover. I’m an artist, and that is something no one can take away from me.